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This is my first blog. I submit this to feet of Amma ..with prayers. I hope I could understand the love and humanity she preach and share something positive to anyone who happens to read my blog.


I have read and heard about Matha Amrthanadamayi a lot even when I was living in Kerala. I was very impressed those days with the very fact that she came from a poor background and created an organization for social good. Its very hard for a woman to do something like this in Kerala. One common trait in Keralites is that, we always look for reasons to hate others or that’s what I felt that time. Our leaders and writers are always giving us reasons to hate this group or that person for reasons in greater context of human good holds no value. It is the land were people attack and even kill for just having different political opinion. Then I moved out of Kerala and started living in Canada. Couple of years back, I met a mother from Australia on my flight back to India. She was visiting Kerala to meet Amma. She talked a lot about the way her life has changed after meeting Amma and how much strength and inspiration she got from Her in her struggle to take care of a sick daughter. I was curious after this meeting but as soon I came back to Canada, personal and professional life took most of my time and thoughts. I never got time to know more about Her. In between I got sick and was forced to take rest at home. During this time I was having inner struggle to define my relationship with God and religion. I was trying to find meaning of life and worthiness’ of spirituality. This inner struggle reached a level of looking at life as a worthless, uncorrelated sequence of events with no special meaning. On one of those days I happened to listen a speech from Amma on an internet site. She was saying that love should be the basis of human life; it should be the basis for interacting with others and defining our own life. At first I didn’t felt any thing more than a cute speech about it. But next day I was trying to think about it more. It was not easy. Initially I struggled a bit to accept her words. I didn’t even understand why. I was thinking whether it was because of my ego and inability to place another human being in a position from where he or she can influence my own thinking. Or was it because she is a female and am male chauvinists who struggle to accept a female as a leader. Later I understood, the huge hurdle was my ego. Once I dealt with it, I was slowly able to go deeper into Her words. I understood that instead of looking at hatred and fear towards something for inspiration, I should look at love for others as reason for life. Which in fact changed me to a new person. Now I feel lot more peace with life. From social perspective, I felt she is redefining Hindu religion to a wonderful new form. She is removing the caste differences, lack of focus on social growth, lack of infrastructure within religion for spiritual education, lack of focus on social service. She is changing all these and giving each Hindu a refined perspective of life and religion. She is bringing Gods more closer to normal people.